a bathtub full of ducks for you

Bbq sauce marinated grilled pork loin with roasted garlic gorgonzonla mashed potatoes and corn on the cob.

It was given to me by you!!!!!

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Betty Page died, that is all.  Made me sad.  But the way she lived the first part of her life is how I will remember her.  Not the part about stabbing people.  And being a hermit pack rat.  She will never be forgotten for the progress in womens sexuality.
Tanks Betty

THE HOUSE IS OURS ON PAPER..............Now we just have to wait for the septic system to get done to be able to close and get the keys.

 So as another year draws to a close.  I have nothing profound to say, no new enlightenment.  This year was one for the memory banks though.  Living in Italy, traveling Europe.... sometimes it still seems so surreal.  Like it was a dream.   But no one can take away my memories from that year of my life.  Hard times and good combined.  I did learn a lot.  How I am stronger than I thought.  How I am weaker in some ways.  Who my true friends are.  What good wine is.  That I am not ready for kids for a while.  That a puppys love can brighten my day, as with my cat.  I have been reminded that I get to dependent on my friends, then when they pull back I get hurt.  I have been reminded that change is hard.  That death is hard to deal with.  But most importantly I have been reminded that I am healthy, alive, happy, and comfortable.  I am not where I ever thought I would be, but then again for the most part who did turn out to be who they thought they would.  
But I am here and ready to face what the world throws at me next.
I have my big kid pants on and am ready.

Current Location: couch
Current Music: snoring puppy

I am so  friggin stressed out about this house............... things are not going as smoothly as we had hoped for.  There is still lots of hope, but shock value over the last few days has been intense.  Plus all the family and friend shit that has been going on.  Noah and I mad a promise to eachother before we left Italy.  We need to make and take more time for ourselves.  We take too much time out of our life to accomidate other people.  Especailly when it is not reciprocated.  It is not that we don't love our family and friends... but we love eachother and need to have more us time.  There are so many things that we never did around this area because we were taking our weekends and vacations to go to Idaho, Pullman, Vancouver and Spokane.  If our friends and family love us so much as they say they do they will start to realize that they need to make the effort to come see us.  As there are a select few that have.  We have no problem with having visitors here, plus we can still do some exploring of our area that way too!!  Plus once we get this house, we will be a little more restricted as to going places anyhow.  Being that there is a lot of stuff that needs to get done with the house for it to be how we want it!  And that will mean that is where most of our money is going to be headed.  And I can't wait to have that house, and be able to pain the walls and let my dog out the back door to do is buisness.  Noah can have his room, I can have my room.   And that kitchen...........oh how I love that kitchen.
But untill then I need to get off my butt and do some work on this house.  It is a mess, plus I still have christmas stuff I need to work on to get some stuff in the mail.  If I don't get off the couch now, I never will.....

Current Mood: determined

So right now I am in Noah's office aboard the USS Emory S Land.  I have been on the ship since about 8:30 this morning and am so ready for a nap.  I once again have no idea how he can live like this on a boat, in the conditions that he does.  At least here he can see the sunshine.  I can't say I have learned much but I do feel very lucky for getting the opportunity to do something like this, as not many people do.   It is very interesting walking around though, seeing faces that look familiar from 5 months ago wandering around La Madd, here on the boat and now out in town.   I am so glad they are finally home, and do hope that life starts taking on some sort of normalcy soon... but then again its not like we were ever able to sit stil for very long anyhow... oh well.  That may change with us buying a house and me getting a job?!?!?!?!  hum, how odd it feels to be starting over...ish. 

Current Location: USS Emory S Land
Current Mood: sleepy
Current Music: whirring

I hate the day the boat comes home just as much as I love it.  It is always one of the longest days EVER!!  Nothing you do seems to pass the time quick enough.  And every half hour you check your phone just in case you missed a call somehow even though you have your ringer set as loud as it could be.   I really can't wait till Noah is out of the navy and I don't have to sit through days like this any more.  Only 5 more years.... ugh.  I am just so happy that I will have him for a whole year after this!!  Hooray!

Current Location: couch
Current Mood: anxious
Current Music: dryer

 the only kind of sweet and sour sauce out there is the kind that is bright fucking pink..........ish red


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Current Music: radio